Age

I'm not even middle-aged yet but I seem to be having my own mid-life crisis.

I can't say I hate my job, but it's certainly not ideal. The hours are horrible and the pay even worse. But, I have a job, which is more than a lot of people can say right now. And so I deal.

I came to the realization that I'm not in-love with my husband anymore. We've become more of just friends, but I'm not sure when or how it happened. I really have no urge nor want to be intimate with him. I've realized that his own anti-socialness has left me feeling stifled and lifeless. But leaving him would cause more complications than staying. I know he does love me, and goes out of his way for me. Not to mention it would destroy the kids. And so I deal.

There's more to all this... but I'm out of time. Perhaps another post is in order at a later date.